3 AM

It's 3 am and you're in my head again. I should be thinking about him, but instead, you - engulfed with guilt of feeling something for someone else. Five minutes have passed and I am now enraged; of how the universe could be so cruel in making us meet then tearing us apart. And at [...]

Stay

I count the calluses on your hands and the dreams in your mind. Kiss your fingertips and trace your freckles with mine. You have constellations on your skin, an evident angel underneath the clothes you wear. The space between us is disappearing. You send butterflies down my spine, counting the speckles of gold in your [...]

To My Future Partner

Dating me will be a little a lot different than all the girlfriends before me. I'll be skeptical at first, because my dating pool consisted of egotistical boys that wanted me on their conquest list, (as if fucking a disabled woman is a high achievement) and the boys who adopted me as their little sister/self-pro claimers [...]

Exposed

Nervous, after all this time I still get nervous around you. Of what to say and how to project it, hoping it doesn't come out foolishly. My mind races; thinking of all the witty things to say to you counting my fingers and toes and double checking my facts. Because the idea of you reacting [...]

The In-between

Maybe she was a lost soul after all- Swaying back and fourth From the sun and the stars, Not wanting day and not wanting night, Not wanting to be here nor there. Stuck in the in-between. The in-between of connection and distance, Of confusion and clarity, Of drought and drowning in emotion. She wanted to [...]

Petit Café

It wasn’t bitterly cold that season – The chrysanthemums were boasting in their bloom, But my fingers fancied holding my sixth cup of mint tea As I was watching people; The children holding hands Near the fountain where a lady holding a book threw a coin into, The birds picking up the crumbs left behind [...]

Relapse

I’m sitting naked on the cool bathroom floor, watching the steam roll off my reddened skin, hoping that the guilt I feel in my stomach goes away and not make me rest my arms on the lavatory seat like the night before. I let myself slip again – I saw it coming; all the sleepless [...]